I had a post already to go, then I hesitated and trashed it. Yep in the garbage it went. It was about bringing little kids to church. Maybe one day I’ll fish it out and post it, but for now there it stays.
Before I explain why I trashed it, we need to go back a few weeks to a few other bloggers I follow.
A few weeks ago, a Mom was interrogated and essentially hand slapped for posting a silly anecdote about her little boy. The commentor was attempting at looking out for the best interest of the child and the child’s future, stating he may not want to be remembered by something like this. The Mom responded politely, but I was unsure of the whole thing. Both sides of it.
Then last week, another blogger was accused of being too fake because she’s always too happy and doesn’t post enough reality. Again, the Mom responded politely. But really?!
How can a mother win?!
So back to the post I trashed. It was a post about why Harv may or may not be a sweet angel at church. Spoiler alert: he’s not. But it made me second guess everything I wrote. Would Harv be offended one day? Or would he laugh at the impending karma? Was I a bad Mom? How would I respond to a negative comment or viewpoint?
Then the big questions started coming, like am I posting too much about my kids? I’m always safe and mindful of the “big” things, but the little ones? I always try my best to protect them and their growing souls, but do I succeed? Am I going to regret this one day? Or worse, are they going to regret it?
I’m not sure I have an answer or anything even close to an answer, but I know I needed to express my frustrations.
Life hasn’t been a peach around here lately. Not with Caleb… well…. Caleb gets it taken out on. But not our marriage. The kids. I don’t want to go into detail, because that is something I know and refuse to break my own rule on. The obstacles they tackle are private, nothing ever posted on here. But life isn’t always easy and it’s been hitting hard lately so I feel like a crap Mom as it is, then to have reminders that people are watching and judging. That’s tough.
Being a parent is hard enough as it is, let’s put the swords down for a while and maybe (just maybe!) support one another.
So as heavy as that ^^ all was, I want to leave you with this:
I think you’re awesome.
I think you’re doing good things.
I think happiness and positivity is awesome and the right attitude really is beneficial to plow your way through things.
But I also think reality is ok too, seeing as that’s where we all actually live.
AND at the end of the day. It’s your human. (I just ask that you take care of them as best you can, I have a soft spot for their little beings ♥)
Hang in there, you got this. So do I.